Silent Breaker

You Know Who You Are

2012-02-06T08:31:00.001+08:00

We may not be perfect. We may not always be together every moment of everyday. We may get distracted sometimes, but I know that you are what I want. I know when we are together I feel like I belong, I feel like that’s where I’m supposed to be. I know days go by without us being physically together but I know that it will pass. I know people try and get in the way of us but they will never get through. Think about it! We have made it so far… and we can make it even further. I have faith in us and I know you do too. Not by obligation but because you actually love me, I feel it. I know it. I love us, with our imperfections and everything.

#Waking up thinking of you, made me write this. Good morning Zir. C:

1-28-12

2012-01-28T08:56:00.001+08:00

Fight for me. I want you to beg me to stay and tell me how horrible you're doing without me. Show me you need me and want me in your life. That you'll do anything to make me stay. Show me that I'm the only girl for you, and no other girl compares. Chase after me. Don't let me give up, show me I'm making a big mistake by ~~leaving~~. Show me how important I am to you. Don't just let me walk away...

2011

2011-12-31T13:54:00.002+08:00

2011 is the year that went by so fast, maybe a little too fast. It’s the year your so called friend walks out of your life, and it’s the year you realize who the real ones are. It’s the year you felt the most pressure to the point where you gave up so many times but you’re still learning how to get back up. It’s the year you said you were going to accomplish great things yet you feel like you’ve just wasted time. It’s the year you cried over too many pointless things, too many times. It’s the year you look back on all the lifetime memories in which you find yourself missing the people in them. But it’s also the year you move on, slowly, and you realize that everything will be okay. And it did, eventually. :)

#2012pleasebegood

Dear GOD

2011-12-25T16:49:00.000+08:00

Thank you for inviting Lolo to be with You on this day. We are not saddened by his death because we know he is happy and fortunate enough to celebrate this day personally with You. Have a Merry Christmas everyone. C: #bittersweet

This Part Right Here

2011-12-24T18:13:00.000+08:00

Noah: Would you just stay with me?

Allie: Stay with you? What for? Look at us, we’re already fightin’.

Noah: Well that’s what we do, we fight… You tell me when I am being an arrogant son of a bitch and I tell you when you are a pain in the ass. Which you are, 99% of the time. I’m not afraid to hurt your feelings. You have like a 2 second rebound rate, then you’re back doing the next pain-in-the-ass thing.

Allie: So what?

Noah: So it’s not gonna be easy. It’s gonna be really hard. We’re gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What’s it look like? If it’s with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I thought that’s what you really wanted. But don’t you take the easy way out.

-The Notebook

Man vs. Woman: The Pathetic Truth

2011-12-22T20:46:00.000+08:00

Woman asks: If I sleep with 3 men, everyone calls me a slut. But when a man sleeps with 8 girls, everyone calls him a ~~real man~~. How come?

Confucius replies: ‘It’s very simple. When one lock can be opened by 3 different keys, it’s a bad lock. But when one key can open 8 different locks, we call it a master key’.

Not good. SIGH.

Santa's Not Coming

2011-12-21T09:40:00.004+08:00

I’d really like to spend the holidays with you. The seasons are greeting us, the night’s just right, and mistletoe’s aplenty. I’ll hang some LED lights,pull the plastic Christmas tree off the shelves in the garage, and brew us a nice cup of instant hot chocolate. I’ll grab you by the waist or you'll probably grab mine and close my eyes, thinking all the while that Santa’s not coming to my house this year. I’ve already got what I want from my wishlist, and that’s you. #you-know-who-you-are

Good Morning Sunshine ^^

2011-12-21T09:28:00.000+08:00

BCT (Bacon Cheese Tomatoes) Sandwich and a cup of hot chocolate for breakfast. A yummy way to start the day. :)

Sedong Hits It Hard

2011-12-20T14:49:00.000+08:00

No words can describe how I feel right now. Except maybe my prayers go out to the victims of typhoon Sendong in CDO and Iligan, Philippines. This picture is of a father carrying his daughter… His dead daughter. Right now more than 600 people died because of typhoon Sendong, and about 300 are still missing. Please help them. Let's all pray for them.
*Not my photo

Words are Useless

2011-12-19T18:16:00.000+08:00

There are certain people who come into your life and leave a mark. Their place in your heart is ~~tender~~; a bruise of longing, a pulse of unfinished business. Just hearing their names pushes and pulls at you in a hundred ways. And when you try to define those hundred ways, describe them even to yourself, words are useless.

No Looking Back

2011-12-03T11:28:00.002+08:00

Dear PAST,
Thank you for all the lessons.

Dear FUTURE,
I'M READY.

Just Saying

2011-10-29T10:45:00.001+08:00

What do you feel when you love someone? If distilled down to it’s core components, what would those be? Yes, love is an emotion, a feeling, a ~~wanting~~, and a “being”. We know it feels good, but what specific feelings, wantings, and beings are present when we feel love?

Love is Accepting.

Acceptance is labeling someone as “okay” and having no particular desire to change them. Who they are is perfectly fine with you. You pose no condition on whether you will love them or not. This is called unconditional love. When your love is conditional, the moment they step outside your set of conditions, love wanes. Consequently, love is rarely a constant state but fluctuates based on our degree of acceptance.

Love is Appreciating.

Appreciation is one step beyond acceptance. Its when your focus is on ~~what you like~~ about another. We look at them and feel this sweeping appreciation for who they are, their joy, their insights, their humor, their companionship, etc. When someone says they are “in love” with another, they mean their appreciation is so enormous for this person that it consumes their every thought.

Love is Wanting Another to Feel Good.

We want those we love to be happy, safe, healthy, and fulfilled. We want them to feel good in all ways, physically, mentally and emotionally.

OOOHH MEEEN! These chick-flick movies made me want
to talk about love again! Pfft.

Even when you're hanging by a THREAD

2011-10-19T18:57:00.000+08:00

Life is a series of bridges. The hardest part is deciding which ones to cross and which to burn. Figuring out who to leave behind and who is worth risking it all. Who will be there waiting with open arms at the other end? Who will be cutting the rope as soon as you step on? You realize whether you’ve made the right decision when you’re about halfway across, but by that point, it’s ~~too late~~ to turn around. You have to push forward, slowly and carefully or quickly and recklessly. Whichever way you choose, ~~you can’t look down~~, you can’t be afraid, there is no room for second guessing. Even when you’re hanging by a thread, even if the foundation is shaking, even when the fire at your back creeps closer, even when you lose sight of the other side, keep your head up, eyes forward, and faith strong. Doing all you can to resist the temptation to jump.

Cool With IT

2011-10-14T22:16:00.001+08:00

I'm weird, yeah, what else is new.

I don't mind being called strange. Strange is a definition of not being pulled in by the crowd and do what everybody else is doing because that's exactly how my whole life has been. I've been so.. different (if that's how I simplify it, and to make it look sane).

You know my old habit of how I write stuffs on my notepad just to keep my thoughts flowing and it's not just about one particular stuff, occasionally about family stuffs, mostly about what I go through, what randomly pops in my head. So ~~I really don't mind~~ if some people don't get it, I'm cool with it.

P.S.
I've been kinda busy these past few weeks. :3
Finals, Research Study, Pre-oral defense! Pfft.
Everything's over and done. Thank God. :DD
HELLOOOOO SEMBREAK!!!! Ugh. I'm 'effin excited to go home.

Lesson Learned

2011-09-04T01:58:00.000+08:00

A wise man sat in the audience and cracked a joke. Everybody laughs like crazy. After a moment, he cracked the same joke again. This time, less people laughed. He cracked the same joke again and again. When there is no laughter in the crowd...

He smiled and said,

"You can't laugh at the same joke again and again, but why do you keep crying over the same thing over and over again?"

Love Smarter

2011-08-29T18:43:00.000+08:00

We were given a looong weekend at school, so I decided to go home. I miss home so much-my bed, my family, ~~everything~~! I’m happy I’d be able to spend time here.

So, one of my friends came to visit me this weekend. Last night we were discussing certain past situations and jokingly labelled them as "emotional terrorism”. We laughed and continued on our conversation, enjoying a full evening of each other's company, snacks, and movies. After waking up this morning, our conversation wandered down the ~~path of romance~~, but this time we kept the discussion in the present or future tense.

At one point, this bubbly friend looked me straight in the eye and told me that the only way to have a successful relationship was to not let go of your emotions. She insisted we needed to evaluate a potential partner with our logic, rather than our hearts and date someone for a while before even beginning to open up emotionally. I listened and nodded.

Later this afternoon I was hanging out with some friends and surprised myself when I made a comment during another conversation about romance. I swear, I talk about more topics than this. It just happened to be ~~the subject of the weekend~~ apparently! LOL Basically I suggested that I could enter into all the actions of a relationship ~~without any of the emotional attachment~~ or strings that came with it. I said perhaps it would be better if I kept my feelings in check and just carried through with the motions of dating to avoid the possibility of being vulnerable or hurt. My friend expressed surprise that I would be able to do this.

I realize how ridiculous that statement was! First of all, after thinking more about what I said I realized I don't think I am capable of doing something like that. Secondly, even if I was, ~~I don't want to be a person like that~~.

But I didn't trust my own thoughts, because as already proven, they can be faulty at times. The only thing that heals those wounds is love. So though I had momentarily been convinced that putting my heart in time out would help keep it safe, I know that the ability to love and feel is the only thing turning the wrongs of our life to right.

Rather than shutting out the chances to love, it's important to let it rest in the arms of its rightful companion which is ”WISDOM". Making mistakes in love is just a part of being alive, but rather than closing it out and declaring it bad, it is important we learn from our errors and move on to love more successfully in the future.

So I am taking my heart out of time out and giving myself a break. I will not allow my past to emotionally terrorize my present and fill my future with fearful inaction. Instead I will learn from the past and make ~~wiser decisions~~ about my future. But my decisions are to love smarter, not love less, because loving smarter lets me love stronger.

Yes, I am.

2011-08-29T11:15:00.000+08:00

I woke up this morning with a smile on my face..

Your absence doesn’t hurt me anymore..

I am here. I am smiling.

I am. Fine.

Only Time :)

2011-08-27T17:37:00.000+08:00

I'm Not Lost. I've Found Myself.

2011-08-15T17:52:00.000+08:00

So I guess the old habit's back. Here I am writing crap out of my head and hoping in the future I'd be able to look back and think, "wow, now that's true inspiration" because when nobody else in this world is willing to give you any advice, sometimes the only person you have to rely on is yourself.

These past few weeks I've learned a lot. Probably too much to handle for someone easily frustrated like me. Rejection, failure, loss, and heartache.. All in less than a month. Sometimes I wonder what's the point of going on in life, if every sacrifice I put into was in vain. Or what's the use of dreaming, if the future is dictated for you. Or what's the use in trusting someone, if at the end of the day you're on your own.

But you know what, that's just a blessing in disguise. It might seem terrible and painful, but maybe that's just the thing I need. A massive wake up call.. for the fact that it's the wrong path I've been taking and I should just change lanes.

Well at the moment I am happy on how things are going for me. I am happy that I've grown as a person, I've become more mature. And the thing I'm happiest about is that I've reconnected with GOD. I am building a much deeper relationship with HIM. And guess what? That's all I really need.

"Those who joyfully leave everything in God's Hand, will eventually see God's Hand in everything."

Worry ends when Faith begins. :)

S I G H

2011-08-07T14:20:00.003+08:00

You see that girl staring into space? If you were to ask what's wrong, she would say nothing. When in reality it's everything. She's sitting there wondering what she did wrong, what she could have done differently, how she would have changed it if she had the chance. And if she had the chance to go back and do it over again, would it end with the same result? That's why she stares.

That's why I stare.

Dear Self

2011-07-26T19:13:00.002+08:00

Hello & Goodbye

2011-07-26T19:04:00.000+08:00

It’s the scariest thing ever to realize how much someone means to you. When it hits you, I mean really hits you, all these thoughts and questions rush through your head at once. A sad emotion even starts to creep on you slowly inch by inch as you start to wonder.

What if for some reason things don’t work out? – How are you possible to live without them?

Someone that was once a stranger now is the only person you know like the back of your hand. Someone you once had no emotions for, now has the power to break your heart. Someone you never used to hang out with, now owns most of your time. Someone you never thought you love, now owns your entire heart. Someone you once lived without, you now wish to hold onto forever.

BUT nothing's ever forever, forever's a lie. All we have is between hello and goodbye.

It's Just How It Is

2011-07-21T20:16:00.001+08:00

You can hide the pain that you feel and make others believe you can move on but you can never deny the truth to yourself that the person who has failed and hurt you is still the person you’ll always choose to love.

OUR STORY ENDED

2011-07-19T10:35:00.002+08:00

and it's not a happily ever after.

Medical Mission

2011-07-16T19:48:00.001+08:00

Just this morning, the members of the SNAP (Student Nurses Association of the Philippines)-CPU Council participated in a Medical Outreach held at Core Shelter Area, Uswag Village, Jaro, Iloilo City with the Rotary Theme: “Reach Within to Embrace Humanity”. We are very fortunate for having been able to partake in this event. I really like going to medical missions ever since. It gives me a feeling of fulfilment that I am able to serve those who really are in need and who are suffering from abject poverty.

I was assigned together with 4 of my classmates to the Medical Education area. Some members of the Rotarac Club Iloilo were also there to help us through. It’s quite challenging because we have to make sure that every person understood clearly what their medication is and how they are going to consume them (plus the fact that there were countless of people there and every person has various medicines. CAN YOU IMAGINE THAT?). IKR. Whew!

But you know what? No matter how exhausted I am, at the end of the day I’m still very pleased. Seeing the smiles of the people there (especially the kids and the elderly) and hearing them say “Thank You” is so overwhelming that no amount of money can ever compare to that. Hihi. :)

What a day! I need to rest though. I’m so dead on your feet. Tssssss.

Day 04 What You Ate Today

2011-07-09T19:11:00.001+08:00

I wasn’t able to eat my meal for breakfast. I’m afraid I’ll be late for duty so I just had a glass of green tea. We’re currently on duty in the community, so we’re ought to bring a packed lunch. We had lunch there with the family assigned to us. After duty I was craving for spaghetti, so I had one. Nam. Nam. Then after that, just random foodstuff (CHIPS & some SWEETS). I told you, I eat a lot. OINKY! LOL.

Goodbyes Are Never Easy

2011-07-08T19:07:00.005+08:00

Our 3 weeks of exposure in Asilo de Molo has already ended. And believe me, it’s not easy. At first I thought I will be pleased because it would mean NO more mopping the floor, No more washing the dishes, No more cleaning the droppings (poop) of the elderly and at last we say adieu to the unpleasant smell of the place. (Forgive me, I’m just being honest-not a hypocrite who pretends to do otherwise).

BUT as what they say, things happen for a reason. As time goes by, I started to do things not because I have to but because I want to; not because I was asked to but because I’m happy to. I’ve learned to care for those people whom I barely know. “Those people” now became a significant part of me. I’ve learned to love them.

The Lolo’s and Lola’s in Asilo are special. They may not have the best of everything (some had gone through difficulties and sickness which you wouldn’t ever wish to go through) but they have been blessed with people who truly care for them. And I thank God for giving me the opportunity to have this experience which I’ll never ever forget.

Let me share some pics with you:

This is Lola Mag’s. She’s my super duper best lola ever! We have a special relationship and I it was heartbreaking when I said goodbye. She really cried and it made me cry too! I’m really gonna miss her! :’(

Lola is sooo cute when she’s making faces like this. Yaaaay! :)

One of our “train-train” moment. :P

Lola is showcasing her talent which is SINGING! Haha.

Here, I told Lola to give chance to others because she insists on singing more. Haha. She’s really so adooooorable!

Lola’s FANS. Hahaha!

Here with Lolo Esperidion. He is disoriented to time, place and person and with a right sided paralysis. Taking care of him is a challenge but I don’t mind. It’s the 2nd time I was assigned to him. The first time was when I was still in 3rd year.

The ever cute and cuddly Lola Leah! :))

Here with the most well behaved Lolo Kiko. Obviously, his favourite hobby is sleeping. Haha!

Posing with the pink plates we donated. Haha!

With Fil Am & Julyen. HAHAHA!

How I wish my own grandparents were still alive. I could have cared for them even more. It’s sad how I was able to do things for others and not do it for them. It’s one of the things deeply regret. How I wish I could turn back time. :(

If you want to know more about ASILO de MOLO, simply "google it". :P

PRELIM EXAM tomorrow!

2011-07-04T17:21:00.001+08:00

While I was having a break from studying (I badly need it cause I think my brain’s gonna explode), I hit upon this pic and it made me LOL. hahaha! I can super relate!!! I'm sure you too! Well anyhow, GOODLUCK on our exams! Imma burn my midnight candles yet again. Pft.

IT'S HIS BIRTHDAY! :)

2011-06-29T11:25:00.001+08:00

I love so much about him that it is hard to pick just a couple of things out. I love the way he laugh. I love the way he smile. I even love it when he makes me mad and don't know why. I love how when he upsets me, he try so hard to make it better. I am so in love with him that I don't go one minute without wishing that I was with him. Happy Birthday my migooooo! <3

you’re fu**ng your life up, and who will be around when you do?

2011-06-28T18:36:00.000+08:00

GOOD QUESTION.

16 HRS EXTENSION DUTY?!

2011-06-24T14:22:00.001+08:00

FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU**!!!
KBYE!

P.S.
This would be the first time!!!
And IT SUCKS!!!!! SHT.

i dont need pills for everything.

2011-06-22T16:07:00.000+08:00

i can be sober, and spend every second with you.

Day 03 Your Parents

2011-06-20T13:04:00.000+08:00

My parents are everything to me-though I don’t think they know that really. I’m not very open about how I feel (I know, right?). They’re not perfect and so am I. We may have gone through a lot of arguments and struggles still I know they only want what’s best for me. Even now, they still call me “bhe” (short for baby). I can’t put into words how much I appreciate everything they’ve done for me and how much I love them. I will not trade them for anything in the world.

*This is a picture of our family from our latest summer trip! We visited this place called "The RUINS". Supeeeeer nice! :)

IT'S A HOLIDAY!

2011-06-20T11:56:00.000+08:00

NO CLASSES! Yeeeyy. :)) Thank You JR (Jose Rizal)--Feeling Close. Hahaha! You saved me yet again from a stressful day plus giving me ultra mega time to lay on my comfy bed and above all a NO CLASS BUT WITH ALLOOOOWAAANCE day! Thank Yooou! You're definitely my HERO! We could be the best of friends, Yaa know! :P

For readers from across the globe:
Jose Rizal is the Philippine’s National Hero.
We are celebrating his 150th Birthday, so it’s an instant holiday!

Day 02 Your first love

2011-06-17T16:44:00.000+08:00

FAMILY! Hihi. :P But if you mean a person whom I consider my first love.. Well, for that instance.. PASS! Hahaha. I don’t have so much to say about that one. But right now I’m in love, and this one is for keeps.

Click Here!

Love ko 'to!

2011-06-14T17:52:00.002+08:00

Last night, Nang Rochel-the best roommate ever, offered me a Mc Donald’s treat! Who could say no to that? Hihi. Yum. Yum. Yum. I was actually craving for McDo for some time now. I just had no time to go out because I’m already weighed down with school work. Take note: we just started yesterday. IKR? Pfft.

She will be leaving the dormitory-slash-me :( within this week because she will have to fly to Manila for her review. I’m really gonna miss her so bad.

We shared a lot of things. When she’s upset, she’ll tell me everything. When I need something she’ll be there to help out. She’s like a sister I never had. The thought of her leaving is so heartbreaking.

Mind you, for almost 2 years as roommates we never ever had a fight! We super click with each other. Haaay. We’ll still keep in touch though. I wish her all the best and I’ll pray that she will be able to pass her board exam-which I know she will! :)

Oh well. Life goes on. People come and go but those who became special will forever leave a mark. McDo and Manang-Love ko 'to! :)

P.S.
I eat a lot.

The Start: Day 01 Introduce Yourself

2011-06-14T16:46:00.000+08:00

I’m Allysia Mae Lopez. My nick name is EA-pronounced as “IYA”. Allysia is pronounced as A’lay’shia NOT Alicia. No biggie actually, I’m just used to correct people whenever they mispronounce my name-which btw happens all the time! Pft. I’m on my senior year as a student nurse at Central Philippine University here in Iloilo City. View my complete PROFILE to know more about me! :)

For those who have no idea why I posted this click HERE.

Why is it that what I do is not always appreciated?

2011-06-10T10:25:00.000+08:00

You know, I've been trying my best but more often my best isn't just enough. I give them something they keep on looking for more. It’s the thought that should count right? Or maybe I’m wrong. It seems like everything I do is not right and they are not contented with it or maybe with ME. Then, they’ll end up hating me.

So the past days;

2011-06-10T07:34:00.003+08:00

I have been stuck here in my room because we had an “extended vacation”. Classes are supposed to start last Monday BUT by that time the schedules aren’t ready yet. So, the whole week we are FREE from school. I don’t know if I’m really cheery about that. Don’t get me wrong, I loooove holidays especially the “unexpected ones” but knowing CPU College of Nursing I bet we’re going to have an EXTENSION to pay for those days we haven’t had class/DUTY-and I terribly dislike MAKE-UP DUTIES! Errrr. You know the feeling at the end of the semester that you’re just suppose to go home, put your feet up, chill out, and see your family but then there’s that make-up duty that suck you out of it! Ugh! That’s why I’m very cautious not to get an IR (Incident Report) because when you say hello to IR you also say hi to 8 or 16 hours extension (depending on the offense) and 400 pesos/8 hrs (before it’s only 200 pesos, they doubled it because it seems like some students are not alarmed by the price they have to pay that they continuously incur IR’s).

Yesterday, I received a text message from our coordinator that the schedules are already posted and instead of having our RLE (duty) on Mon Tue Wed, it surprisingly been transferred to Thu Fri Sat! What the F?! Last sem, I’ve already bear with myself being on the Thursday group and we are expecting that our group would fall on the Monday group this time! Grrrrrr! I don’t like it simply because it takes away Saturday which is supposed to be a rest day together with Sunday! Why oh Why???? It’s heartrending. I have no choice but to deal with it, AGAIN.

I'm on blogger..

2011-06-09T12:18:00.003+08:00

since MARCH 2008! It’s been 3 years already?! I barely noticed! I need those bottles to be popping right now! It’s never too late to celebrate. Tehee! :)

LSS

2011-06-09T11:15:00.003+08:00

"Can I marry your daughter and make her my wife.
I want her to be the only girl that I love for the rest of my life
And give her the best of me 'till the day that I die
I'm gonna marry your princess and make her my queen
She'll be the most beautiful bride that I've ever seen
Can't wait to smile.. :)
When she walks down the aisle
On the arm of her father
On the day that I marry your daughter.."

lalalala..♥

The RED Flag

2011-06-08T15:58:00.005+08:00

Today marks again the cry of my frustrated uterus. Sht. Why do girls have to go through this every month? And worst, I'm having dysmennorhea. :( (According to Wiki, dysmenorrhea (or dysmenorrhoea) is a gynecological medical condition of pain during menstruation that interferes with daily activities). IT'S KILLING ME! Ugh. Girls who endure the same situation as I do will be so upset-well, except for those who seem to be on cloud nine when their period arrives-you know what I mean right? ;P

Revamp

2011-06-07T14:42:00.002+08:00

Yes, I’m guilty. I’m guilty of being sluggish enough not to write anything here for such a long time. I’ve been busy (summer duty IS a nightmare), don’t ask me WHY. I’m at a lost for motivation and for a time I forgot I still do have a blog. What’s up with that? Pft.

BUT today is a new start for me and for my almost dying blog! (Uhm, I hope so?) For me not to wait anymore for a light bulb to pop in my head for ideas....

I will go after this. Booyah!
(just not sure if I could carry on every day. Haha)
OH WELL, ATLEAST dba? :)

Love Letter

2011-06-06T16:56:00.001+08:00

P.S.

This is my last year in college. I hope you'll hear me out (*fingers crossed).

2011-04-27T10:48:00.002+08:00

Poop!

2011-01-27T16:15:00.003+08:00

IF I WAS A BIRD, I KNOW WHO I'D S**T ON FIRST.

Koizora

2011-01-26T10:40:00.002+08:00

Before I went to bed earlier, I thought it will just be the same ordinary night; that I’ll eventually fall asleep and wait for the sun to shine on me the next day. But I was so giddy. Strange. So I opened my laptop and just thought of watching a movie. Without thinking of any particular movie to watch, I hit on Koizora. It’s a Japanese movie with an English translation. Actually, it’s a love story. And it really made me cry, big-time. I was so drawn to it that after watching I’m still shedding my tears. OA. :D It’s also the reason why I feel like sending my boyfriend a message. Well, “messages” actually. (I send it 9 times.) I said I Love You. (*insert smiley face here :) ) I bet he’ll be wondering what’s gone into me. Haha. Perhaps twas just an aftershock love-slash-kadramahan syndrome courtesy of the movie. ^.^ Hoooowell. I think it’s now time for me to snooze-which I’ll probably have a hard time due to my swollen eyes. Eeeek! Goodnight!

PS.
1:29 am of December 18, 2010-the exact time and date that I wrote this post.
I just totally forgot to put it in here! Buzz me off! LOL.

2010-12-15T14:09:00.002+08:00

Dear Blog,

It’s been a very long time since my last post here. A LOT of things happen. I don’t even know when to start, but I guess I will not put the details anymore or else I will finish this post forever (overstated). I’m sorry I ignored you. There are things which I believe needs more of my time. And I regret that. I get a hold of you for 3 years now. And I will still have you for MORE years to come. Even though I don’t get to post often, still I will try my very best. You know why? Because I have realized something which I should have thought long before...

YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE who listens to me (in a way) without complaints, who lets me write without judgements, who makes me feel better after pouring out EVERYTHING. YOU ARE MY ESCAPE. And I hope you will not get tired of me telling you how tired I am on everything else. Thank you for understanding. Let’s face tomorrow with a smile. Let’s hope for the best. I MISSED YOU.

Love,
Me <3

BUSY. :C

2010-08-22T16:18:00.003+08:00

Be back soon.

I am so touched. Haaaaay.

2010-07-11T19:31:00.004+08:00

I’m txting my boyfriend. He asks if he could go to the mall to buy a mouth solution for his "singaw" or mouth sores (He can’t stand the pain any longer .He can’t even eat well. *sob.) and to duplicate the key in their apartment with his apartmates. :D So I said, okay.

Then, I remembered I also have to buy something really really important. AS IN. But I don’t think it’s appropriate for him to buy it for me. Cause you know, it a girl’s thing. :D It’s actually the “cry of my frustrated uterus” of the month. Haha. So in short, I have my period. And I NEED to buy sanitary napkins cause I have no stocks left. At first I was hesitant to ask. I even said never mind cause I don’t think he’ll do it. But he’s persistent to know what is it he could do. So I told him about it. I was SURPRISED when he said OK right away without even thinking that it could lessen his “macho image”. Helloooooo? You know guys, right? eeek! But my gaaaaahd.. I really don’t mind if he’ll say no, coz I’ll super understand! But he said YES! Haaaay. He really do love me. Don’t you think? :D

Hush.

2010-07-11T14:43:00.006+08:00

I want to share with you some pictures we had when we were having our duty in the hospital. BUT you must know na ITO AY BAWAL. Hahaha. Bringing cellphones, digi cams, or other gadgets are BAWAL. Pero dahil mababait kami ginawa pa rin namin ang bawal. LOL. :D

chulaleeys

yayabells

taga punas ng pweeeh! pweeet!
Sometimes I really do wonder why I took up nursing. Our country is flooded with nurses na nga eh! Well, perhaps I wanted to serve the “$uffering” Humanity? Hahaha! Naaah. Just kidding. Delete the dollar sign. (Sure?).Hihi. :DD

Many names were given to us: chulaleeys, yayabells, at tga punas ng pweet to name a few. Pero whatever you say, we know that what we do is something special. We CARE. The smiles and the thank you's of our patients will never be replaced. Naaaks! :D

Hiding. Taking the chance. Nerve-wracking. Fun.

Pffft!

in the eyes...

2010-07-10T13:18:00.003+08:00

Prelims just ended. And look what I’ve got? EYE BAGS. Yeeeaah. (But it’s not that bad. Right?) Could somebody console me? Hrrrrr. :(
We still have the Midterms, Pre Fi and the Finals. More to go! Ha. Ha. Ha. Haaay.

2010-06-29T16:57:00.004+08:00

This post is intended only for my very gwapo and cute boypren. Hahaha. And the dog in the picture is my symbol of "pang asar" to him. Hahaha. Hindi niyo siguro ma gets kasi kami lng ang nagkakaintindihan (whew!haba! :D) dito. Though he's really dying to buy a new dog. Well, again. HAPPY BIRTHDAY BF! I know you're super duper to the highest level happy--with ME. Hahaha. ILYSM! *Smoooches!

Twisty

2010-06-29T16:25:00.007+08:00

I was insensibly surfing the net when I stumble upon this attention-grabbing image-slash-quote or whatever you may call it (Haha). It’s really fascinating and *cute! Gosh! It made my draining daylight hours! Actually, it’s the last day of our duty in the hospital—but only for the 1st rotation. Next week, we’ll be in our CHN in the community. 'Nuff of that.

Back to the image. Well, it did put a smile on my face. Parang joke. Haha. Marami pang pa-ligoy2x isa lang nman ang gustong sabihin. We are all caught red handed to this. We do not tell directly what we truly want to say. My gaaahd. Why are we so twisty sometimes? Wala lng nman. It just made me wonder. :))

2010-06-26T09:20:00.002+08:00

My Top 5 "LIKES" of the Day:
I am completely amazed how people think these days. LOL. :))
1. "Become a Fan" is old, I want to "Become an Air Conditioner".
2. "HEY, WHO STOLE MY...nevermind i found it."
3. "OHH FUCK ITS A SPIDER!" "Dude calm down its just a spi....OH SHIT THAT BITCH IS HUGE!" *Kills it with remote*."
4. "Okay, I will get out of the bed in 10 seconds. 1-2-3-4-5-6-7-8-9-9-9-9.."
5. "B.S'ing homework two minutes before class and getting full credit."

2010-06-25T22:51:00.002+08:00

What will happen to me for the next 24 hours?
(according to FB. LOL.)

Allysia will encounter this for the next 24 hours:
"She will be burried alive and survive for a few hours underground, then spiders will invade her body and kill her from the inside."

Hahaha. I doubt if this will happen. Scary though. Jeeeez!

2010-06-25T21:36:00.003+08:00

I am so disappointed in some things I can't tell..coz I can't share it to you. Secret na lang. Hahahaha. I managed to laugh. A FAKE laugh, OK? How can I be so fake. Wheew! Forget it! I just have to prepare myself for tomorrow. Coz I know tom..will be a sleeping marathon day! Hahahaha. (fake.fake.fake) :p

2010-06-25T18:50:00.004+08:00

Shudipuutiks!
I SO HATE THIS DAY!
CRAP! CRAP! CRAP!

I'm still here in school at 7pm, suppose to be I should be home right now. It's raining. My cellphone's bat is EMPTY and HE DON'T UNDERSTAND! Yeah, I think so.
I wanna scream, throw my phone (w/c I already did) wala PULOS! uurghh! WHY? WHY? WHY? I could kill someone right now!

"Now that I have a gun, you may run or hide."-status of the day. :/

2010-05-01T17:24:00.007+08:00

FLASH NEWS!
Allysia seems so HAPPY.
Looking at her previous posts, you can tell how upset
and frustrated she was! But now... Hmmm..
Can you crack it up? What's the real deal?
Well. Well. Well.
(*I'm talking to myself again. weirdooo. :/ )
But anyways,
YOU
Wanna know
WHY?
'coz
HE STAYED. :)
and
HE LOVES ME--even MORE...
flaws and all.
YES.
WE'RE TOTALLY BACK!
love. love. love.

*I just hope I don't mess up again.
I'll keep my fingers crossed! Hrrr.

Will Always Be Loved

2010-04-23T20:23:00.003+08:00

"You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She's not perfect - you aren't either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human & making mistakes, hold onto her & give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don't hurt her, don't change her, don't analyze and don't expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, & miss her when she's not there." -Bob Marley

I've read this from / / P e n s i e v e.
wonder why everything that is sad,
feels so relevant. :(

shout out

2010-04-23T19:39:00.006+08:00

All that I'm after is a LIFE full of LAUGHTER

As long as I'm laughing with YOU

And I think all that still matters is a LOVE ever after
After the life we've been through

Cause I KNOW there's

NO LIFE AFTER YOU..

Cool Off

2010-04-19T10:51:00.007+08:00

Will I ever change?
Or he just have to accept who I am, flaws and all?

I know my faults. I admit that. Whether he believes it or not it's not always intentional. It's just me being so careless and tends to forget a lot of things. I don't know how I will be able to explain that to him using the most appropriate words as possible without sounding like I blame it all to him (that's what he thinks, actually). Let's just say I have a terrible disease which may hurt you over and over again without I knowing it. I'm trying my best to overcome it, I really do! But I just always stumble, making a fool of myself over and over again. I'm just so stupid and probably the most dense person ever! I hate myself for that. Despite of me being all that, will you still stay? or will you walk away?

P.S.
It seems like forever since my last post here.
I really do have a lot of things to blog about
but I'm not just in the mood, I think. Maybe
next time! Ciao! d--b

wut?

2010-01-25T16:03:00.008+08:00

What will you do when you are facing/choosing between two choices?

SIMPLE

"toss a coin"

it works not because it settles the question for you,

but when the coin is in the air,

you suddenly know what you are hoping for!

BLANK

2009-12-16T18:30:00.014+08:00

There were absolutely so many things that cropped up to me lately. A lot of ideas of what to blog have been brain waived---but the moment I would start typing a new post... Guess what? I just went BLANK. Seems like everything were blown away! How rude was that? Urgh. Crap! I'm just killing my time (giving it an unlawful death) blatantly looking at the monitor, realizing that it was still a blank sheet (I mean, a blank post). In spite of everything, there's NOTHING in it. Oh well. Maybe I'm not just getting the vibes to type-slash-twaddle anything. Except for now. :)

Hear it straight from me:

"I suppose I have nothing to blog because I don't sense that I have something to blog, but then I thought what about I'll blog on the subject of not having anything to blog at all? Perhaps, that's a good idea. So, that's what my blog is all about just now."

HUH?

LOL.

read between the lines :)

2009-11-28T12:30:00.008+08:00

no matter how bitter a coffee gets...

one bite of a sweet cookie
changes everything! :))

I Don't Know

2009-11-20T12:13:00.002+08:00

I feel so wretched. It's as if I'm the most pathetic person in the world. How could I always hurt the person I value the most? I know that he's hurting too much. I make mistakes and I'm taking note of it, but the rude thing is I'm just doing it again and again. :( It's just that... urrgh! I DON'T KNOW. Even I don't know the exact reason. I am so sober as hell! I'm SORRY. I know sometimes he's sick and tired of it already. But I'm pretty sure that he'll understand because he loves me. But knowing that he loves me doesn't mean that everything I did was okay, right? (I hope being able to say this makes him proud of me.) That's why I'm saying sorry. After all those things, I realized in the end it is him that matters to me most. :(

P.S.

I've already deleted the post you
wanted me to delete. See? It's not
here already. ilysm. :)

How could I ever...

2009-11-08T10:25:00.003+08:00

..make the same mistake again! I dunno what's gone into me? Sheeeeet! Here I go over and over again. It seems like forever. Huhu. But swear to God I didn't intend to do it for the nth time around. I'm really sorry. :(

I feel so shitty damn stupid!

Saccharine Love

2009-09-26T15:09:00.003+08:00

Classic lines from HIM. <3

*Im a Bee. Can you be my honey?

*Charger ka ba? I need you fill the EMPTINESS in me.

*May kandila ka ba diyan? Patirik naman dito sa dibdib ko..
Para sa puso kong patay na patay sayo. :)

Corny. Sweet. Sugary. Syrupy. Sobrang Cheessy!
His lines always work for me. LOL.

Sweetness :)

2009-08-31T13:43:00.012+08:00

I can say that these past few months have been the hardest for both of us. We were constantly fighting. We even had to cool down for a while. Hmmm. For about 2 weeks I guess. But everyday I was constantly hoping that things will get better. Well. I knew it will. We just had to settle our differences.

One afternoon we decided to talk. But during that time, it was still NOT OK. We just took the weight off our feet at one table at a corner blatantly looking nowhere. As if no one wanted to speak first. I looked at him. It was so damn painful because I missed him so much! Our conversation was not that good. I explained my self but I think he hadn't understood a thing. He's so hurt. I brought so much pain to him. I was also hurt with all the things he said-though I knew it's all out of anger. And I can't blame him for that.

As tension got in our way, we started yelling at each other. It's pointless. We can't talk like that. Out of the blue, silence embraced us. No one's talking. And the worst part is we ended up resolving nothing.

We decided to just go home and rest. We went on separate ways. My heart was breaking. I didn't know what to do at that time. I was already in the jeepney when I received an unexpected text from him.

It was a plain text saying, "Pwede ta ka madul-ong?" I was thrilled. I hurriedly went back. Then I saw him, almost catching his breath. Without any word, we rode in the jeepney together. It was so awkward. We were not looking or even saying a single word to each other. We just sat there close at each other's side.

Then something happened that almost made me cry. HE HELD MY HAND. I was very touched he didn't knew I was barely holding my tears back. (We were still not talking at that point.)

I looked at him.

He smiled his perferct smile.

I held his hand tighter.

He hugged me.

I hugged him.

There's really no need for words. Even in silence-LOVE can be heard. :) I'm happy that things between us are ok now. We wanted to spend more time with each other so we end up eating and chatting at McDonald's at the Atrium until 7 pm. :)

Oh well. That wasn't an ordinary day.
There's no ordinary day when I'm with him. :))

Falling Into Places

2009-07-30T11:57:00.004+08:00

"Things just happen. Things that you may never understand. But you just have to believe that it's for the best. Even if it doesn't always seem that way."

Everything is fine now.
I'm HAPPY.

More CRAP here!

2009-07-11T20:05:00.018+08:00

The SHITS

1. My LOLO died.

I went home last week to attend the burial.
I can't deem with the fact that he's gone.
But I know he's happy--he's now with Lola.
They are now together forever in paradise.

2. My BROTHER got admitted in the hospital
the day after the burial.
He's the weakest link in the family!
He's asthmatic and now he's got a low pottasium content
which can lead to a cardiac arrest if not remedied immediately.
(huwat?!he's only 13!)
He will be forever medicated!
Oh HELL!

3. The PRELIMS just ended.
Thanked God it's over.
Literature is devastating!
The subject is fine, the exam is not!
It's as if we need to memorize every word in our book!
Simply because our prof is the AUTHOR?!
(Crap! it's not even a major subject!)

4. I'm sick. I'm stressed. I'm not
a hundred percent!
(*-*)

5. WE are not in good terms right now.
I'm so careless--knowing that he's VERY SENSITIVE!
I keep on repeating my mistakes! It's all my fault!
All I give him is pain and misery.
I'm suppose to make him happy.
STUPID me!

6. I found out that I've got myself a NEW POSER!
DAMN! Are you that ugly that you have
to take my pictures, copy my stuffs and
pretend to be me?!
PRETTY LAME!

"Whenever you look in the mirror..
Is it ME that you see?"

CLICK!
The POSER

7.I'm shitty scared of what's
happening! HELP!

It's not a lucky 7 after all.

CAN LIFE GET ANY WORSE?

Up-to-the-Minute

2009-06-06T14:00:00.009+08:00

Let me start this post with a text message quip.

"Taking a nursing course is like strolling in a park..Jurassic Park." *Toinks.

Am I suppose to laugh? Haha. I see in your mind's eye the look on your faces. You don't even have to let the cat out of the bag. (For those with the BIG "?" on their heads, this simply means you don't even have to tell it.) Haha.

Anyways, I already enrolled myself for this school year (1st semester). I'm on my 2nd year in college! Can you imagine how time just seems to whoosh by? With all the comings and goings, I'm just in high spirits that my 1st year in college was over and done. So far so good. But as my level increases, I know I'll be expecting more bumps on the road, more struggles, more on everything!

And GUESS what?

I HATE MY SCHED! Hrrrrrrr!

WHY?! Health Care w/c will be one of my major subjects this sem is from 2pm-8pm! Urgh! 6 HOURS?! 8 PM?! Oh crap! And i have classes almost everyday w/c will end like 7 or 8pm! How's that!Errrr!

Who wants to exchange their last names w/ me?! Grrrrr. (the schedule is based on our section w/c is alphabetical!) Huhu.

Now. where's the f***** DINOSAURS! GAME ON!

Laugh To Death

2009-05-09T10:56:00.007+08:00

Uhh. Life's really unpredictable! There were so many things that happened to me this past few weeks. I just don't feel writing about it. Haha. Seems like my brain's too occupied with zoology and statistics. Hrrr. Our summer class will be over soon--just 1 week to go. I thought my summer would be boring--BUT surprisingly I wasn't bored at all! Haha. I had so much fun esp. w/ MSL around. :) I'll surely miss our laugh trips and FLASH NEWS: Si Gideon ay B _ K _ A! (fill in the missing letters) Haha. *peace giddy. ^______^ Hope Katel wouldn't read this. Haha.

Speaking of laugh trips, here's some pics you could laugh about---to death?Uhh. OVER. Haha. Tell me what you think. OK? :) *Smoochies.

^___________^

GUY Confessions

2009-04-12T08:28:00.004+08:00

Written By a Guy :)

We don't care if you're friends with other guys. But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even intruducing us, yeah, it pisses us off.

It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for 10 minutes w/o even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.

We don't care if a guy calls or TEXTS you, but at 2 in the morning we do get a little concerned. Nothing is that important at 2 a.m. that it can't wait till the morning.

Also, when we tell you you're pretty/beautiful/gorgeous/cute/stunning, we freaking mean it. Don't tell us we're wrong. We'll stop trying to convince you.

The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence. Yeah, you can quote me.

Don't be mad when we hold the door open. Take advantage of the mood we're in.

Let us pay for you! Don't feel bad. We enjoy doing it. It's expected. SMILE and say "thank you".

Kiss us when no one's watching. If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking, we'll be more impressed.

You don't have to get dressed up for us.

If we're going out with you in the 1st place, you don't have to feel the need to wear the shortest skirt you have or put own every kind of make up you own.

We like you for who you are and not what you are.

Honestly, we think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's or our shirt and boxers, not all dolled up.

Don't take everything we say seriously. Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it. Don't get angry easily.

Stop using magazines/media as your bible.

"Don't talk about how hot Chris Brown, Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney in front of us." It's boring and you have friends for that.

Whatever happened to the word "handsome/beautiful"?. We'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted us w/ "Hey Handsome!" instead of "Hey baby/stud/cutie/sexy" or whatever else you can think of. On the other hand, we're not saying we don't like it either.

GIRLS, we cannot stress this enough:

If you aren't treated right by a guy, don't wait for him to change. DITCH his sorry ASS, he's a disgrace to the male population and find someone who will treat you with utter respect.

Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest.

Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.

Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel.

Someone who will stop what they're doing just to look you in the eyes...and say "i love you"...and actually mean it.

Every guy who isn't a jerk will agree w/ this and we hope that girls will read it.

*Holding Hands

Girls: If you want to hold his hand, gently bump into it a couple of times.
Guys: Grab it if it happens a couple of times.

*Cuddling

Girls: If you want to cuddle w/ him, tell him you're cold.
Guys: Automatically, move closer to her.

*Movies

Girls: During a movie, if he puts his arm around you, tilt your head on his shoulder.
Guys: Lift her chin up and kiss her.

*Loving each other

Guys: When she tells you she loves you, look deep into her eyes, give her a peck on the lips, and tell her you love her too...and MEAN it.

*Laying below the stars

Girls: When you're both laying under the stars, put your head on his chest and close your eyes as you listen to his steady heartbeat.
Guys: Whisper in her ear and link your hands w/ hers.

PHRASE for the DAY: Men are pigs---by Dr. Gregory House, I agree with him,
well atleast this is true for SOME.

GUYS, agree?
GIRLS, wattya think? Hmmm. :)

Turn Your NAME Into a FACE

2009-04-09T15:41:00.005+08:00

Oh BOREDOM! It really kills me. As so you know boredom is "a condition characterized by perception of one's environment as dull, tedious, and lacking in stimulation. In terms of its central psychological processes, it is an unpleasant, transient, affective state in which the individual feels a pervasive lack of interest in and difficulty concentrating on the current activity". *whew---nose bleed. pffft.

Anyways, I have obviously nothing to do so I visited my online buddies in the web. I really enjoy reading their blogs and I do share with them my thoughts on just about ANYTHING. It's nice to know that I am able to build friendships online and I'm just happy to know that I have my online friends with me---even if I don't actually know them but what's important is all of us are having so much fun. It's all that matters. :)

Because of the so-called BOREDOM, I TURNED MY NAME INTO A FACE ! Haha.
(as advised by an online friend :D)

HERE's THE RESULT:

link. link. link.

WHOAH! Haha. Does it look like ME? FUNNY.WEIRD.
I know what you're thinking. Hrrrr. :/
TRY IT! LOL.

I WANT THIS BOOK!

2009-03-26T19:57:00.008+08:00

The Scenario:

I was strolling at the mall one time. I'm actually with my Dad---but I don't really hanker after leisurely walking with him because he's not just so into girly things like spending hours looking for a cute tee, going in and out of the fitting rooms, finding a new headband-slash-pussycat-slash-hair crown (or whatever you call it!) to add to my collection and so on. Thus, I separated with him to spend some quality time for myself. *giggles.

I was in the midst of my window shopping when I remembered that I have to buy some decorations for my scrapbook. So, I went to the National Bookstore. As usual, I wouldn't go out the store without reading some of the books available there. One book really caught my eye! It's super nice and it looks so interesting---and I really find the cover cute! I was able to read some of its contents. Subsequently, my phone rang! It was my Dad calling me---he told me to meet him right away for some important reasons! So in a panic mode I hurriedly followed him. The sad part is I wasn't able to buy that book! Huhu.

Then just last week, I helped MSL to find a birthday gift for his younger bro Tim2x. I suggested a book so that Tim2x could spend his summer reading. A double purpose for me because I really really want to hit upon that book again---MSL also looked for it. But we're just so unlucky, we haven't found it. Huhu. MSL bought me another book instead-- Stainless Longganisa by Bong Ong. Thanks Muchie yummy bear. (corny. Hihi.)

Here's some info about the book:

Title: The Boyfriend List

Author: E. Lockhart

Overview: (I searched the net for this one.)

Ruby Oliver is 15 and has a shrink. She knows it's unusual, but give her a break---she's had a rough 10 days. In the past 10 days she:

lost her boyfriend (#13 on the list).

lost her best friend (Kim),

lost all her other friends (Nora, Cricket),

did something suspicious with a boy (#10),

did something advanced with a boy (#15),

had an argument with a boy (#14),

drank her 1st beer (someone handed it on her),

got caught by her mom (aghh!),

had a panic attack (scary),

lost a lacrosse game (she's the goalie),

failed a math test (she'll make it up),

hurt Meghan's feelings (even though they aren't really friends)

became a social outcast (no one to sit with at lunch)

and had graffiti written about her in the girls' bathroom (who knows what she was in the boys'?!?)

But don't worry---Ruby lives to tell the tale. And make more list. =)

Hrrrr. I vowed my self to look for this book---no matter what!

Teeny Weeny

2009-03-20T15:40:00.004+08:00

Haha. AT LAST! Sorry to keep you waiting for my spanking new post. Actually, my friends kept bugging me and even my co-bloggers here to update my blog. But despite the fact that I really want to, I can't. I had to make the most of my time in school. I absolutely know my priorities. Our Finals for the 2nd sem is now over and done. Thanked God. But the process I went through for the exam was...unexplainable? I can't settle on the exact word to describe it. Hrrrrr. I am a person who is so into CRAMMING. Yes. I know it's better to study in advance---but I think being idle especially weeks before my examination is in my system already. I'm like a machine set to operate 2 days, a day, a night or even hours before the exams! IMAGINE? Haha. However, I am extremely used to it. I'm relatively quick-witted so I know I can come to grips with it w/o a fuss.

And hey, I GOT 3 EXEMPTIONS. I'm not in fact expecting it. Last sem I was also exempted but with only 2 subjects. Now, my count is in 3. I'm just very thankful and blessed, of course. You know it's really nice to think that somehow your hard work (and sleepless nights!) had paid off. I'm not bragging it to all of you, i just want to share my teeny weeny accomplishment. By some means, it made me feel proud of my self and knowing that my parents were also proud of me makes me want to sing the nursery song...'I'm alive, alert, awake, enthu-sias-tic!' Haha. Is that right? Hmmm. (ano'ng connect???) [--,]

Oh well. Time seems to just whizz by, don't you think? Summer Class is just around the corner. And in just a few months, I will be taking another step on to my 2nd year in college. Just be with me on my journey. Ok? Put up the shutters. *wink. ^____^

Poor Allysia ;[

2009-02-28T18:29:00.004+08:00

Ok. Ok. Ok. It's been quite a while since my last post here. BUT I have my good raison d'etre---it's so forgivable. Haha. The last two weeks have been so tiring/exhausting/strenuous/arduous/wearing/laborious (super many adjectives to choose from!) for me. It's like 2 weeks full of EVERYTHING--the drama, the hustle and bustle, the sentiments, the cravings, crammings, gushy stuffs, ups and downs, oops moments and my list goes on... arrgh! I've been so busy I almost forgot my brother's birthday! Oh my--->thanked God my mom reminded me. If not I guess I'll still be bending on my knees asking him to forgive me. He's sooo matampuhin. Well, I can't really blame him---his older sis is much more matampuhin than he is. Hihi. MSL even labeled me as a 'sunggodera' for that same reason. For those who don't understand hiligaynon, sunggodera is the same as matampuhin. Toinks. ^______^

What made me so occupied? Hmmmmm. 95% of the reason is related to school! I bet you already get the picture. My brain is still coping from the previous pre-final exams. We also had our NSTP outreach program in Oton and just this morning in Sta. Barbara. Haaayy. I guess I will not be telling you the details of my other activities. I just don't have the oomph to type right now. Haha. Sluggishness syndrome is striking me. Haha.

Anyways, I'm alone again. Well. Because my Dad is not around. He went to Negros--he needs to work on something there. And because of the freedom that I have I went to Punta Villa with my friends for a swim. I went home late and Dad found out about it. Now. that explains the picture above. When he gets back here: IM DEAD.

A Message From a Lover

2009-02-07T09:44:00.008+08:00

It's the LOVE month already. And I'm not bowled over to see and hear almost everyone having a chinwag about their so-called-love life. Whether you're Single, In a Relationship, Married or in a It's Complicated kind of thing you're not off the hook about this love fever. Hmmm. Last week I asked MSL if he could write something in my blog. Without any shilly-shallying, he agreed. I guess it's time for me to get a dose of romance. oh-em-gee. Here's what he wrote:

I'm So Blessed
(a message from a lover)

In my life right now, I feel so happy, so inspired, so elevated, satisfied, so contented. I have joy in my heart. I always wear a smile in my face. I feel at peace. I feel so in love. I feel so BLESSED. You know why? I got HER. She's mine now. She owns me. We've got each other.

Maybe you already know this girl I'm talking about but this time it's my turn to introduce her. This is how a lover sees the girl he loves.

Allysia Mae G. Lopez, soon to be Allysia Mae L. Herida is a beautiful, sexy, hot, stunning, cunning, adorable and witty young lady. She has a very kind heart. She's so sensitive but chooses to be quiet whenever she's hurt. This girl knows how to sacrifice. She puts other's safety first instead of hers. She's also a God-fearing woman. She considers her loved ones feelings before she makes any decisions. She has all the quality an ideal girl should have. For me, she's perfectly perfect. I love her for being true to herself. I love her for simply being herself. These are just SOME of the adjectives that suits and best describes her.

I won't let this go. I won't let her go. We will stay forever. No one can ever break us. "Loving her is as easy as breathing but leaving her is as painful as dying". I'll stop breathing if I don't see her anymore. I love her, with all I am, with everything I am.

*Haay. What can I say? You know the song of Rico Blanco...Your Universe? I think it's lyrics could shout my heart out..

---I don't think that you even realize the joy you make me feel when I'm inside..your universe.You hold me like I'm the one who's precious. I hate to break it to you but it's just the other way around. You can thank your stars all you want but..I'll always be the lucky one. =)

Unread Messages

2009-02-03T18:19:00.005+08:00

I've been so hooked to friendster--every time I open my 2 accounts I get loads of friend requests and comments plus messages (I have 2998+ friends and it never-endingly increases in number). Am I that affable--or let's say cute? Haha. Then there's my multiply site which I keep updated with my up-to-the-minute pictures and "blah-blahs". And needless to say, my blog--it's pretty obvious. I super enjoy blog hopping and exchanging links with my fellow bloggers. It's nice to know that there are people who share the same interest as I do--and I get to learn from them as well.

Hmmm. I think there's something I have to do in half a shake--or an account I have to open maybe. *thinking. *loading. *busy. REFRESH! Aha! My MAILS! My gawd. It's been so long sinced I opened it! Urgh. I completely lost track about it. I'm such a scatter brained--a total blank. Oh my--I hurriedly signed in to yahoo mail and I can't believe what my eyes saw---1582 unread messages! It's a bolt from the blue--a shocker. How am I suppose to read all those messages? I dunno. Huhu. Maybe I'll just have to delete those that are not-so-important. Haiz. "allysia..allysia..allysia. Now you know your lesson. If you don't want to get stuck up and exert extra effort and TIME to read-slash-delete your messages, open it regularly." OK. Now, I'll take a deep breath and I have some reading to do. Whew.

What On Earth Am I Here For?

2009-01-24T09:28:00.002+08:00

This Life is not all there is.

Life on Earth is just the dress rehearsal before the real production. Earth is the staging area, the preschool, the try out for our life in eternity. It is the practice workout before the actual game; the warm up lap before the race begins. This life is just the preparation for the next.

WHY AM I HERE?

I reall dunno---but i believe that I have a purpose to fulfill. This purpose may not be easy to realize and recognize at first but if I'll dedicate my life to HIM for sure I will be guided and eventually I will be able to know what that purpose is. =)

and 1 thing is certain...

Life is just a temporary assignment---comparable to a mist, a breath, a wisp of smoke. So I'd say...

I am here on earth for just a little time and I'm gonna do my best to make it worthwhile. =)

jan+uary=JANUARY =)

2009-01-24T07:49:00.011+08:00

January is definitely my month----no doubt about it.

Let me share to you what put me so high this month.

The TREE HOUSE

We over and over again see this tree house in school---not so far from the Johnson's building where we're having our RE class. So, one time me and tin decided to see what's in it. It was nice--you'll looove nature.

The PUG

I really dunno the breed of this odd looking dog. We often pass by this creature whenever we go to the net cafe we're so hooked into. Look at his face! Yeah, he's a male. Do i need to explain to you why? Haha. I can't help but giggle every time he's looking---a really bizarre kind of look.

The COLLAGE

We're instructed to make a collage in RE about the world which we want to live in. Too bad I haven't got the picture of our finish product. But there's a saying there made by myk, "We aim not for a High Tech world but atleast a place where everyone is HAPPY." I defended it--on the spot. No worries, I'm actually used to it. Making it was uber FUN! We got the highest score. Thanks to ME. Haha. Char. It was a group effort. =)

The BIRTHDAY PRESENT

January is also my birth month! One of the main reasons why I totally love this month. I celebrated my birthday without my family---for the first time. Uhuhu. Mom and Oying was in Negros, Dad was in Aklan at that time. Haiz. Oh well. On the lighter side, my friends were there. So it's not that sad after all. And MSL saved the day. Haha. We went out, watched a movie (Bedtime Stories--;D) and I'll never forget that same day--he knows why. HAHA. He gave me a very sweet present. The pictures tell it all. =)

Mind Rumble

2009-01-11T07:38:00.002+08:00

I'm making my reviewer in chemistry---but seems like I can't wrangle with the urge to fall asleep. Help! Status: terribly heavy-eyed but refuses to go to bed because of that long quiz on monday. Shocks. I have to finish it today or else I will end up doing nothing. "Camote Delight" gid ni krun gwa qh! How pathetic! =( They say as a student you have to burn your midnight candle. May sunugay kilay pa gid gani! Haha. That's what I'm trying to do-except the sunog-kilay effect. Yikes. So far the upshots are eyebags, headache, stomachache, backache...Tanan na lng nga may ache! That HORRIBLE PAIN! It's so excruciating! But I have to put up w/ it-I MUST!

I need to take a breather--so to avoid being stressed out. I opened the tv and to my surprise I found myself watching Kapuso Mo, Jessica Soho. Haha. Don't get me wrong, I'm NOT and will NEVER be a KAPUSO! I was just interested w/ the topic they're featuring--it was about memory, I guess. There's this story of a girl (a student like me) who munches "lugaw with pieces of PAPER" in it. Yeah, you read it right. In those tiny pieces of paper were numbers and words to help her remember facts she just studied. Weird. And when she sleeps, she is surrounded w/ books! Maybe those books have powers? I find it really comical! Haha. I think it's just one of those pamahiin's. She's so delusional. But the girl said it actually works--yeah, maybe for her. Haha. It's all in the mind baby. Goodluck to you. XD

Haiz. College life gid man bla uhh! How i wish I could just close my eyes and the moment I open it up, I already have that much awaited diploma in my hand. CLOSE again. OPEN--wow, I'm in the airport bidding adieu to my family because I'm going to the States and earn dollars! Haha. That's what most nursing students aim for. And Filipino Nurses going abroad? What's new? It's the current trend. Nobody can really blame us for seeking a stable and a comfortable life. We just want to secure our future. Now, back to REALITY. Life isn't as easy as that. You have to work hard for yourself. You can't achieve your aspirations just by closing and opening your eyes. Don't expect for a miracle to happen! Walang Himala...Ang himala ay nasa puso ng tao... Yeah. Everyone knows that famed line of Nora Aunor. But it's true! We make the miracles in our life. And for me, the most special ingredient in one's success is FAITH in God. Our faith will make us persevere and believe that nothing is impossible w/ Him. When the going gets tough, that faith will keep us going. Trust me. No, trust GOD. =)

PS

I typed this post the morning after. Haha. It's so late and i don't have the energy to open the computer. Amu lang nah uhh..

ay isa pa gid gli...

Lapit na lng ma full 1st account ko sa FS. So, I advise you to add my 2nd account instead.

iamallysia@yahoo.com

Thank you!

(Ngaa abi may limits pa ang pwd mo maging friends sa FS? Tani unlimited na lng!--daw sa txt ehh..)

----[kumod2x] XD

Things I Wanna Do

2009-01-06T10:05:00.000+08:00

I spent my Christmas vacation and the rest of the holidays at my hometown with my family. Whether you believe it or not, I had so many laaazy days(almost everyay!). I'm a home buddy-I prefer to stay at home and actually do NOTHING. Haha. I'm just in my bed, lying-slash-daydreaming, reading really good books, txting, watching tv and so on... You get the picture? Haiz. And I missed MSL so so badly. :'(

On my trip back here in Iloilo, I was supeeer bored-coz I travelled alone. I had no one to talk to. Sob. So to kill boredom, I looked for my journal, luckily grabbed a pen and jotted down some things I wanna do-and will do...one step at a time. Here's my list. Take a look. =)

get up 15 min. earlier.
look at problems as challengers
unclutter my life
don't know all the answers
fly a kite!
get a driver's license. I keep bugging my mom to let me drive our car-but she just don't trust me! Safety first! Haha. (soon!)
develop my sense of humor (joke?XD)
listen to a symphony
watch a ballet
do everything in moderation
do brand new things
look at a work of art
throw a paper airplane :]
know my limitations and let others know thm too
go on a picnic
cook a meal and eat it by candle light
quit inhaling junkfood
clean out my closet
recognize the importance of unconditional love
stay up all night on the beach with someone I love (MSL), making a wish with every star that shoots across the vast night sky.

God, there's so much to do. Hmmmm.

The Sweeter Song

2008-12-19T07:01:00.000+08:00

*This is the continuation of my previous post The Sweet Song Beckons. I advise you to read first that post before you lay your eyes in this new post of mine. Awkeish? =)

---> Greek legend also tells us that another ship passed that way. And the Captain of that ship responded to the Sirens very differently than Ulysses.
Not far behind the ship of Ulysses came another great ship. These sailors also realized the dangers of the Sirens and the rocks upon which they sat.

"Captain Orpheus," the first mate enthusiastically declared, "the sweet song of the Sirens lies just ahead!"

With that announcement, the crew cheered and the great Orpheus smiled. All around the ship, crewmen's voices rang with excitement. The part of the voyage that they longed for was soon at hand. In fact, there were some in the ship who had come along just to hear the music.

With a knowing smile, the dauntless Captain received a beautifully adorned case from his cabin boy. The acclaimed Orpheus carefully removed the priceless instrument as the crewmen stood nearby with bated breath. Then, with princely grace, he lifted the instrument above his head with a gesture of victory, while the crew around him whistled with enthusiasm.

"Play it, Captain!" cheered the helmsman.

"Come on, great Captain Orpheus, play it!" whooped the enthusiastic first mate.

All eyes were transfixed upon their hero. Captain Orpheus took his stance and began to masterfully play the most perfect music men's ears had ever heard. Each crewmen became lost in the reverie of the song.

All too soon the Siren coastline was out of sight and the Master musician concluded the song that he himself had composed. Not a single man aboard ship was tempted by the Sirens' melody. In fact, no one even noticed it. Though the mermaids' music was alluring and sweet, the superb Orpheus played for his crew...a sweeeter song.

*For those of us who have spent years tied to the mast and for those of us who couldn't bear the allurment and crashed against the rocks, it's time to set sail to a different tune.

In our love-hungry generation we sruggle to believe that the "beautiful side of love" really exists. But the truth is, Hollywood can't even touch the version of love that is alive and real and in the heart and mind of God. It is the "sweeter song". And when you hear this "sweeter song" you, too, will realize that it is ten thousand times more magnificent than your most grandiose imagination.

The Sweet Song Beckons

2008-12-18T20:20:00.000+08:00

(Based on Homer's Odyssey)
*READ and relate to the hidden message in this Greek tale.

Captain Ulysses cut a powerful figure as he stood on the deck of his great ship. The afternoon sun shimmered off the water as he strode about the ship with grace and dignity. Ulysses' every move was carefully observed by the helmsman who labored long and hard for nothing more than the approving eye of his noble captain.

"Steady as she goes!" Ulysses boomed, his voice filling the salty air.

"Yes,sir" was the helmsman ready reply.

After giving the command, the captain turned his iron gaze to the starboard side where land was just now coming into view. Neither the screeching gulls overhead, nor the rhythmic splash of water against the ship's side, diverted Ulysses attention from what lay just ahead. The smell of adventure was in the air; everything was just as Ulysses liked it. Then, amidst his reverie came a voice arresting his attention.

"Captain!"

The noble leader quickly turned to find a worried seaman, eyes filled with trepidation and lips rattling with anxiety.

"Captain! He again blared, his whole face ablaze with horror.

"Settle down!" Ulysses sofly commanded, "Take a deep breath and tell me what's the matter."

The entire crew within earshot had stopped and gathered round to hear the outcome of this all-important conversation.

"Uh...we...ah...!" he shuttered, "well...uh...you see, sir!"

Ulysses grabbed him by the collar, yanked him within inches of his furrowed brow and demanded, "Come on lad, if you value your life, speak!"

The drama built as the petrified first mate raised a quivering finger due north and shuttered,

"The SIRENS, sir!"

Ulysses face drew tight and a woeful sigh was heard about the ship. The Siren mermaids were just ahead, ready to sing their irresistibly enchanting song and cause the bewitched sailors to steer their vessel onto the rocks. The song of the Sirens was so sweet, so alluring, no red-blooded man could resist it. Ulysses had to act quickly-while wisdom still remained.

"Those devilish mermaids won't get us!" he announced to his fearful crew. "That's right! that lovely, luscious, melodious music played by those beautiful mermaids won't have it's way with us. No shipwreck for us today lads!"

But even as Ulysses pondered the intoxicating music, he felt his wisdom slipping. He was gripped by a magnetic urge to hear just a short strain of the legendary song of the mermaids.

"Maybe we could try and miss the rocks? NO!" He chided himself, "NO! It does this to all captains who pass by. They all think they can resist, but then lose their senses and follow the sweet music to their deaths upon the jagged rocks, while the mermaids scoff from above. NO!"

Ulysses ran to the bow of the ship, turned and bellowed for all the crewmen to hear.

"We are men, unable to resist the promise of sweet love in the mermaid's song. The Sirens have baited every ship before us with their songs, and everytime the ships have crashed against the rocks upon which the Sirens sit. But not this time, my friends. We will not fall for their temptation; indeed, we will not even allow ourselves to be tempted!"

"I want every sailor to take some of this beeswax and put it in your ears so you can hear nothing. And tie me to the mast!"

His crew looked at each other with bewilderment.

"You heard me! "He shouted again, "Tie me to the mast. And tie me tight and fast!"

The sun angrily beat down as the disciplined crew rush about the ship responding to Ulysses' orders. And none too had they crammed the wax into their ears and finished tying their captain to the mast, but the beautiful and intoxicating love song of the siren mermaids began to softly fill the air. The Sirens' song, in all its passion and wonder, greeted the ship across the water as a warm fire greets cold hands on a winter's day.

The crew was oblivious-all except Ulysses who, while tied to the mast, had no wax to stop the music. Ulysses blood ran hot with passion. "Untie me!" he screamed in anguish, "Please untie me! I command you to untie me...please, I beg you."

But the crewmen could not hear and had been commanded not to read his lips. The song grew louder and lovelier, and Ulysses groaned with sheer physical desire. He then began to scream like a madman for someone to heed his orders and turn the ship towards the source of that sweet, lustful music. Ulysses threatened the plank, Cyclops feedings, and various other forms of torture as the ship passed the Sirens' rocky coastline, and then finally beyond the reach of their song.

An exhausted Ulysses, his face a deep scarlet from the struggle, finally was untied and fell limp upon the ship's deck.

"Why?" he moaned with his remaining strength, "Why does it seem that the things I desire the most in this life lead to my destruction? Why must I be restrained from something so beautiful? The mast is my savior this day from my headlong craving for that sweet but deadly song of the Siren mermaids!"

*For many years of our life most of us struggle with agonizing frustrations. We are fighting a constant inward battle between needing to obey God's "Thou Shall Nots" and yet longing to fulfill our passionate, sensual desires. I believe that you also feel Ulysses pain. Some of us grew up being taught how "to tie ourselves to the mast" while listening to the song of TEMPTATION at full volume. We heard all the fire and brimstone sermons on the "rocks of death". Sometimes we may lose our senses esp. during our pubescent years. We have a raging desire within us to have a companion, someone we could love and be loved by, someone we could be intimate with. We want to experience that all that sensual desires. But then again when we come to church and sat down, we hear the same thing...THOU SHALL NOT! And "thou shall nots" only go so far on hormone-infested young teenagers who's looking for loopholes in the rope so that we can accidentally-on-purpose steer our love boat as close to the rocks as we can possibly get.

Is there any other way to keep us from crashing against the rocks? Thankfully, the story does not end here. =)

Choco Madness

2008-12-11T20:13:00.000+08:00

I just tried this chocolate-dip-marshmallow. I find it really cute-and sweet too. Would you believe that our teacher in Biochem, Maam Villalobos, was the one who encouraged us to try it? Hahah! She even endorsed it to all of us. Tsk2. She said we have to reward ourselves for getting good grades last prelim exam. I definitely agree. And by the way, Maam V is hilarious! At the end of our class, she would crank up jokes-sometimes or most of the time (XD) corny. And if we don't laugh at her jokes, she would give us a minus 10. Hahah! Was that another joke maam? Hmmm. Oh well. Xmas break will be next week-but I'm not that really really happy. Because a part of me would still want to stay here and spend more time with MSL. I'm gonna miss him. =(

PS
I mess up with guilia's cbox! uhuhuhu. I didn't really mean it. I dunno what happened. I'm such a clutz! uhuhuh. Hope she could ever forgive me. Haiz.

I NEED more CHOCOLATE! =(

"When GOD Writes Your LOVE STORY"

2008-12-08T21:17:00.000+08:00

The book with me in the
pictures is one of the things that makes me a no-sleep-person these past few days. I can't get enough of it. I'm not a great overstater-just a little. Hahah! But it's true-I can't resist to finish more and more chapters every night('till morning =D). Well, this book was given to me by my MSL. So, it has also a great significant value. The title is also the title of my post,"When GOD Writes Your LOVE STORY". Creative, interesting, intuitive, inspirational are just few of the exuberant adjectives that fill my heart as I read the 'you'll-never-be-the-same' writings of Eric and Leslie Ludy (authors). Both of them share their unforgettable journey which GOD took them on to discover what a God-written love story is all about.

This book is not about rules, relationship how-to's, or a comprehensive guide to experiencing the singles' scene. Rather, this book is all about an invitation for a journey from the One who knows us better than ourselves. This journey is for anyone who is searching for the beauty of true and lasting love, for romance in its purest form, and is willing to do whatever it takes in order to find it. The very One who is the Author of all true love and romance is standing before us, asking us gently, "Will you let Me write your love story?".

If we trust Him enough to give Him the pen of our life, we are in for a journey that will forever spoil us for the ordinary. It's a journey on which we will discover perfect love and pure romance as it was truly intended to be.

L♥VE ü

2008-12-06T07:35:00.000+08:00

Maybe you're puzzled why this blogger here has zip her mouth and doesn't post anything about her love life, let me type it again, now in CAPS, "LOVELIFE" (better =D) from the day she registered to blogger.com and started blogging-for almost a year now. Hmmm? Something's wrong? Definitely NOT! Nothing's wrong. It's just that...ahmm..for me , t's too PERSONAL. I'm a private person. I want to keep it to my self and share it only to people who are intimate to me. (cracking about selfishness here.hmf!) But I guess things actually alter. As what they say, the only permanent thing in this world is change. And sooo..I changed my mind. Hahah! But this change is for the better. Now, I'm gonna update you on what's happening on my tragic-crazy-but-oh-so-beautiful-life plus the addition of...taantaaraandaan...my LOVE STORY. *giggles. Yeah, you read it right.

What spark me off to do this???

*A good friend who's also a blogger like me is sooo sooo sooo in love and you'll eventually know from the moment you see her blog-coz her blog just says it all. I was actually inspired by her.

*My boyfriend checked out my blog and asked why there's nothing about us here. Now he knows. ;]

*I press-stud a LOVE BUG.

To start of:

Let me share to you one of the poems made by my boyfie esp. for me-out of so much love. He also made me a letter (it's in fact he's first time to even write a love letter to someone) *smiles. I'm his first and one true love. *touched. I've been in some relationship in the past but this one's different-really different.We're a new couple, 3 months and still counting...Hope it'll LAST..

YOU'RE MY ANGEL
Mant times I asked GOD about his plan for me
Who I will become and who I will be
I've searched for the answers in the busy streets
Yet, nothing came up but meaningless feat

I thought being alone is happiness
And having no one is life's zest
But too often I find myself falling harder
And my heart becomes cold and bitter

Just when I almost lost my sanity
An ANGEL came to show life's real beauty
That very day, August 23
I untie my heart and set it free

You simply changed me
You've shown the things I thought I'd never see
I simply love the way you are
You are my ONE and beloved STAR

When I met you I immediately believed in ANGELS
Not in shimmering white dress and glittering halo that I can tell
But it was how you turned my world into HEAVEN on EARTH
A lace of lasting peace, love, freedom and mirth

Hayyyy..=)

A Man's Doll

2008-11-25T16:16:00.000+08:00

This is a story of a young girl which has really moved me. Let me share it to all of you.

"Dinala ako nung lalaki sa motel. Parang wala siyang pakialam na 16 pa lang ako. Nung una, natakot talaga ako. Akala ko hindi na kakayanin ng katawan ko, sa sobrang sakit ng mga ginawa niya sa 'kin. Nakakapanibago pala sa simula. Pero ngayon, sanay na rin ako dahil dumadami na ang customers ko. Pakiramdam ko ang laki ng nawala sa 'kin nung gabing 'yun."

This is how it all started. Rosie* was just 16 yrs old when she began working as a prostitute in order to support her studies. She described her first experience with a client like rape, and when it was all over, the guy threw the money in her face. Rosie was forced into this work because her parents had substance abuse problems, as well as gambling issues. One time, her father came home wasted and sexually molested her. He threatened to kill both her and her mother if she were to tell a soul. Instead of seeking help, she began using her body to provide for herself.

"Gusto ko lang sanang makapagtapos at makapagtrabaho ng maayos." To earn for her tuition, she never forgot the advice given to her by an old lady who lived nearby. "Use your body to make living in order to survive."

Her customers put her through a lot, but still didn't want to give up on the notion of romantic love. Occasionally, she would hook up with college guys from different schools. One time, she thought a guy was genuinely into her, so she went along with him to his dorm only to find a group of guys waiting for her. He placed something in her drink and she soon felt dizzy. Later, she awoke naked with a bunch of guys laughing, drinking, and doing drugs around her. Other times, customers even resorted to beating her up after sex just because they had nothing to pay her.

Despite all this, she wakes up every morning thanking GOD she's still alive and healthy. A simple pleasure that makes her happy to this day is going to a toy store and looking at a doll her father had given her that reminds her of better days. It brings her back to the time when she was young and all she worried about was what game to play next. When a customer compliments her out of the blue and says she's beautiful instead of roughing her up, she feels thankful inside. During those moments, she forgets that she works as a prostitute and feels like a real person. ;'(

Hush!

2008-11-22T10:55:00.000+08:00

Hello! People guess what? I've been living 'alone' for more than 2 weeks now. ahaha! What an achievement! Maybe you would think it's not a big deal or whatsoever, but for me it is! My Dad is busy with his work. He's currently in Negros right now to fix things. So, I'm left here alone on Iloilo-which means I have the freedom to do whatever I want, but with limitations of course. For 16 years that I'm existing here in this world, I've been so reliant to my parents. At the same time, they're so over-protective to me. So whatever I do or wherever I go, I must report it to them. They can also be as strict as a ruler! Haiz. Sometimes I wish I could do what other teens like me do. You know, the usual things: night-outs, going anywhere without worrying about that stupid curfew-which kills the fun actually, staying up all night, party 'till dawn, blah blah blah... But what can i do? NOTHING! uhuh. It's fine. Yeah, in fact I'm over used to it. Hmmmm. Now I'm just enjoying my time here, living independently and I oh-so-looovee it. =)

On the other hand, I was so distraught when I discovered that someone's pretending to be my boyfriend when in fact he's NOT! How's that? arrrrghhh! I don't understand why he has to do such thing, and I don't even know him! Such a feeler! I hate it. SOB.

Super Girl-No More

2008-11-10T09:44:00.000+08:00

I'm lying in my bed, looking blankly in the ceiling, feeling sluggish and all, when suddenly something just pops out in my mind. I started wondering if I've become an overworked girl. I asked my self, "Am I neglecting my own needs just so others will like me?". They say that people who aim to please and keep the peace are often overly concerned of what others think of them. They sacrifice what they want, dismiss what they feel, and mold who they are just to avoid being seen as a party popper, a bad friend, a manang, a flake, or anything other than what they think people expect them to be. I must admit, sometimes I'm like that. It's just that it's also difficult to say NO. I'm thinking that if I don't say YES to everything and be everything to everyone, the world will come to an end. But it's not like that. I realized that my friends are strong enough to survive a day without me, the world will keep turning even if I shut off my cell phone so I can finish my work, and my family will still be my family even if I choose to go after my dreams instead of theirs. Hmmmm. Now it's time to take that heavy load in my chest and...breath. =)

whataack! ReUniOn =)

2008-11-04T10:43:00.000+08:00

Hey! Check out some of my pics with my best-est friends.

more pixies at my fs account

aisylla_lopez@yahoo.com

Ciao!ü

Hello Sembreak!

2008-10-13T11:46:00.000+08:00

Final Exams:OVER
1st Semester:FINISH
(Whew! XD)

Things I'm blissful about: =)

*I got exempted from my 2 subjects in the finals.
*I already received my scholarship grant.
*I'll be back in my hometown. Bye City of LOVE, Hello City of SMILES.
*I'm gonna see my family and my oh-so-adorable pet-Bruce! Grrr!
*I'm looking forward for a reunion with friends. PARTIANS barkada!I miss 'em!
*I'll be able to sleep, sleep and sleep! Forty winks here I come! zZzZz...
*No more monster exams! Well. Maybe just for now.Bwahaha!

Things I'm gloomy about: =(

*I'll SUPER miss my MSL. Sob.
*I'll part ways with some of my cm8s in AHSE 1-E. So tear-jerking. I'll uber miss their company!Anyways, we're still in the same school. See yah around guys!
*I'll miss Chem. (ows?) Hmmm. Anyhow? Ma'am Baby Lou? Bwahah!
*I won't be able to have a glimpse of my crush every MWF. Lol.
*I'll be missing strawberry, tutti fruity ang bubblegum shakes!

Awtz. Enough of this drama. Sembreak will just be for 2-3 weeks. It's not that long.
Maybe just enough to take a break and loosen up for a jiffy.

On the contratry, 2nd sem is fast approaching...

What will happen next? Hmmm.

Stay CLOSE. MWAH!

Everything Is Fine Now =)

2008-10-06T11:57:00.000+08:00

"When something is over, it can never start again. When it's broken, I can never put back the pieces. Life is not the way I want it to be. When I know that someone is hurting me, I'll just stop. I know that it hurts a lot, but I must learn to let go. I won't push my self too hard. Because I know that in every 'Ending' there's such a thing that I call 'Beginning'."

STATUS: Happy =)

U-DAY!

2008-09-06T17:53:00.000+08:00

Hello! How’s your day? As for me, I’m totally worn-out! Suppose to be, it’s the last day of our U week but I decided not to go coz I’m suupeeer tired. Yesterday we had a parade and it was so so tiring. Walking for how many kilometers plus the yelling of our cheer (N-U-R-S-I-N-G NURSING!) made me feel like going home, rest and sleep the whole day! Haiz. But I must say that it was also fun! My classmates and I had nothing to do so we decided to do something else while in the parade. Hmmm. And what was it? Put our balloons in the faces of the passengers and traffic aids while they’re passing by us. Hahah! We also had a balloon fight! Whaaattaah! It’s Me VS Barney ( aka Adrian) and Julez. Tsk3. They had a hard time beating me. Bwahaha. We also enjoyed our picnic in the LDT building-except that they won’t let us out until 4 pm. =(

I went home to change clothes and freshen up and then go back at around 6 pm. I really enjoyed the whole time I’m there. I can’t explain the feeling. Why? Hmmmmm. Secret! Heheh. It was about 10:30 when I arrived home. The good thing is my Dad wasn't around-he went to Aklan. So he won't be able to scold me. ahihi! XD

Take a look at my picz. Enjoy!

Tinay and Me

*Soten shot! It was before the parade.

Nursing T-shirt

*I super like our shirt. Cute2. =)

Pink and Blue Balloons!
* Hmmm. We're not that ready. Bwahah!

This is BARNEY (Adrian).
*He keeps on teasing me. So I call him Barney(the friendly dinosaur). XD
In return, he calls me Betty(Betty Boop).

The Suductive
*naahh! just playing around. ahaha!
Grrrrrr.

BLEH!
*This was taken after the parade.

Von.

*my alalay. joke! He's a good friend.

He brought my valuable things during the parade.

Thank you von!

Weng and Me

*whaataa pose! Don't mind me. HAHA!

P.S.

Thank you for all the positive response of those who keeps on visiting my blog and read it’s content. You really inspire me. Here’s a kiss for all of you. Umu’aAhH.

LIFE IS...

2008-09-03T21:22:00.000+08:00

Ciao! Sorry to keep you waiting for my next post. Haiz. I think you're wondering why am I so emotional these past few days. Hmmm. The truth is, I don't wanna talk about it anymore. I just want to think of something else (like 'happy thoughts' maybe), do other things and make the most out of my college life. Speaking of my life in college, we are celebrating our University Week. There are loads of exhilarating contests and surprises to watch out for. Well. I feel like I have to engage my self to different acitivities-so I may be able to forget what I really FEEL inside. Sob. OH MY-enough of this dilemma. Time to face the world with a happy face and it's gonna be a NEW and BETTER me-that's for sure!

Let's amend the topic.

Here's some of my pics I want to share with you.

Have a glimpse of my life in college...

Mommy Tin, Me and Lind's.

*We can talk all day! About what?

ahmmmmm..

ANYTHING!

Cristine and Me
(secretly looking)
*Tin2 and I are always together.

She's there during the times I have no one to run to.

I really am thankful to have her around.

That's our shoes!

*Yeah. Mine's at the right side. I prefer flats.

So comfy. I can walk all day. Charot!

Here with Fil Am(my LAB gruopm8)

*Her name is so cute! It's so so unique! ahaha! XD

CONVERSE-cool huh?Tsk2.

*whOoh! The moment we saw this we went nuts!

SLEEPING! zZzzZzz

*I think this photo was taken during our PSYCHO class.
I can actually sleep the whole period w/ our prof NOT noticing me.

EMOTERA

*What am I thinking? Hmmmm.

Naaaahhhhh!

Jemar and Louie
(evidence! anu nah?) XD

*They are uber funny!-->esp. Louie.

S/He would crank up jokes and you'll definitely laugh to death!

Hahaha! Exag. Grrrrr.

Exhausted classmates!

*While waiting impatiently for our prof.

"Sir? Din ka nah yah?"

Lindsay and Me
(girls will be girls)

* Lind's is trying to put some glitters on my beautiful eyes!

Bwahahaha! She's my kikay partner.

MORE pics at my FS account!

aisylla_lopez@yahoo.com =)

EMOTEra

2008-08-26T20:30:00.000+08:00

As I grow older, my realizations about life became deeper, problems got bigger, situations became more complicated and things got really messed up..

Sometimes I wish I could go back..

Back to the time when the only man in my life was my Dad..

My only Best Friend was my Mom..

and any PAIN could be healed by just a band aid and a lollipop..

DYING..

2008-08-25T09:32:00.000+08:00

I was hurt. Deeply hurt. What I feel is so painful that I wanna DIE.

Why is it so easy for others to judge you? They don't know the whole story! In fact-they know NOTHING! But still they keep on making things worse. You have no other choice but to accept all the things they say about you-most of it are not even TRUE. You try to speak up for yourself. But it's useless. The most painful part is...the person you expect to believe in you turned his back and he never believed you at all. You keep on explaining your side, but it's as if he hears nothing. You try to reach out, but he walks away. You thought he would understand, be by your side, help you during the times you need him the most-but he NEVER did. Where are now all the promises? the hopes?the wishes? It's ALL gone. It's just so stupid of you to believe everything. Yeah, maybe it's right to say promises are made to be broken. I realized that not all things have a happy ending..As of now? I'm totally BROKEN..

No More Fairytales For ME

2008-08-25T09:11:00.000+08:00

I used to think that life is a fairytale...

Full of magic,exciting, vivid! BUT that was a LONG time ago..Now I know that there's more to life than just "HAPPILY EVER AFTER".. I've learned that I get wiser each day..And NO FAIRY can lead me to a happy ending..

I decide..I struggle..And somehow I begin to understand..that I have the power to make each day BETTER than YESTERDAY..